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Feb. 10th, 2010 12:54 pmI need a hug.
Dissertation is nowhere near finished, still, because I faffed around all weekend helping Christian unpack after the house move and actually enjoying my holiday. That's grand, I really really needed that and I can write quickly, thankfully. Needs to be submitted Friday week, which I'm working, so it'll be handed in on Wednesday, probably. Am losing weight again despite eating for Ireland, brain work really does seem to need a lot of fuel. Cor.
Also needed the group session yesterday with classmates where we reflect on what we've done, what others have done, or in my case how two little words were able to bring me to a rolling boil for a fortnight. It's really good to see them occasionally, outside of work. The few I meet around the hospital I only see for a couple of minutes a day and it's nice to catch up on Real Life stuff in person. And then sit in the smoking hut for hours having a smaller group session because we needed it. With no formal supervision of midwifery in Ireland, we're making our own support structures. You have to, to survive both the training and real life. They're a great group and I'm honoured to know them.
But they're not here now and I need a bloody hug. Admittedly this is probably me just coming down from a lot of emotional upheaval yesterday after a lovely weekend and the week at home before that. Last night was the first time I was alone in about a fortnight. And it hurt so much. Phone calls did not make it better, I needed an actual human in front of me. Need to figure out how to cope with that without resorting to an old and fickle lover, but I'm sure I can manage it.
And now, back to writing. Urg.
Dissertation is nowhere near finished, still, because I faffed around all weekend helping Christian unpack after the house move and actually enjoying my holiday. That's grand, I really really needed that and I can write quickly, thankfully. Needs to be submitted Friday week, which I'm working, so it'll be handed in on Wednesday, probably. Am losing weight again despite eating for Ireland, brain work really does seem to need a lot of fuel. Cor.
Also needed the group session yesterday with classmates where we reflect on what we've done, what others have done, or in my case how two little words were able to bring me to a rolling boil for a fortnight. It's really good to see them occasionally, outside of work. The few I meet around the hospital I only see for a couple of minutes a day and it's nice to catch up on Real Life stuff in person. And then sit in the smoking hut for hours having a smaller group session because we needed it. With no formal supervision of midwifery in Ireland, we're making our own support structures. You have to, to survive both the training and real life. They're a great group and I'm honoured to know them.
But they're not here now and I need a bloody hug. Admittedly this is probably me just coming down from a lot of emotional upheaval yesterday after a lovely weekend and the week at home before that. Last night was the first time I was alone in about a fortnight. And it hurt so much. Phone calls did not make it better, I needed an actual human in front of me. Need to figure out how to cope with that without resorting to an old and fickle lover, but I'm sure I can manage it.
And now, back to writing. Urg.
