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I have a real urge to make a hibiscus flavoured mead. Course, I can't find any sodding hibiscus anywhere. Grar.

Simon has been an absolute rock over the last week and a bit. Likewise Christian, but that's not news. Si... has completely surprised me. Utter arse at times, but a good person to have on your side. I pick my friends well. Boyfriends, not so much. Note a theme?

Have started knitting again, couldn't even trust myself to pick a pattern for ages. Mindless hat now, cos anything suitable for summer would be _sensible_.

Still pretty down, btw. Still feel like a rotten failure. Mostly cos I actually am. I miss being a god.